Have you ever had one of those days when you just wake up in a “mood”? You know, a foul, stinky mood and for no apparent reason. That’s how my day started on Friday. Before my feet even hit the floor, I could feel it coming on. It reminded me of when my children were toddlers and would wake up from a nap whiny, crying and unconsolable with no clue as to the problem. That was me! I laid in bed for a moment running through my day and week trying to ascertain why I was in such a state. Nothing. So I asked the Lord to just go before me that day. As I dressed for my day, every little thing got on my very.last.nerve. This was not getting better. I snapped at my husband. I ranted at drivers as I drove to work. And I realized that I didn’t really want to do anything to improve my mood. I just wanted to be in a bad mood. Crazy! But there deep down somewhere was that nagging (irritating) voice telling me I could NOT go through my day with this attitude. Then the Lord brought to mind what I’d been learning, writing about and teaching to other women lately —having a rejoicing attitude…DESPITE circumstances or feelings (or foul moods). Ugh! I really didn’t want this to apply to me today. And I just couldn’t seem to shake it and didn’t really have the energy to put much effort into it either. But I knew that something needed to be done. This attitude was just selfish and not honoring to Jesus at all! So I went through the list of what I normally do when I’m in a mood or feeling depressed. Mind you, I didn’t “feel” like doing any of this. But part of rejoicing always is determining with your will even when your feelings aren’t following suit.
I put on the praise music. I was driving at the time and I keep an NGU Joyful Sound CD in my car at all times. Having three children who attended North Greenville University and two who were part of the praise ensemble there, I knew their music always lifted my spirit and focused my eyes on things above. It was beginning to work. Then I began rehearsing Scripture in my mind and praying for the Lord to infuse it into every fiber of my being. I mean the Word IS living and active! (Hebrews 4:12). By the time I reached work, I wasn’t feeling quite as much like punching something or someone. (I told you, it was a foul mood!). At lunch I had scheduled a work out session with my husband and our trainer. Lunch approached and I considered bailing on it. But reluctantly I pulled on my workout clothes and sneakers and headed to the gym. Cardio, weights, stretching…I was beginning to feel better. My mood was lifting. By the time my day ended I had won the battle with those crazy, female hormones that had been wreaking havoc all day! Continue reading “Finding Christmas in a Foul Mood Friday”